Hello reader and thank you for stumbling on to my little corner of the internet. I hope my words fascinate you, make you think, inspire you to explore your own inner world or help you understand someone else (possibly me, but hopefully someone you actually know).
To begin at the beginning I will tell you that I have always struggled to articulate, out loud, how I feel about anything important to me. Maybe due to my introverted character, maybe due to the less than ideal childhood. I won’t say understanding why is not important. It obviously is, hence why this blog exists. Fast forwarding through my history I will also tell you that my father’s death in 2024 brought this struggle to a head. I was drowning in emotions, unable to share them because I could not find the words to speak. Lack of practice and lack of trust that the words would even be understood and accepted. I thought I had no words, that was until I was asked to speak at his wake. It was difficult, at first I thought impossible. But with time, coaxing from my siblings and a reluctance to disappoint, the words started to materialise. A trickle at first until the damn broke. Pages and pages of feelings captured as poems, letters and musings.
I’m still not articulate. If you ask me how I am doing, I will always tell you I’m fine, thanks. But through pen and paper, or keyboard I am able to express what I actually mean when I say I’m Ok.
Not perfect, but I hope my words resonant with you regardless.
Ify